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Observations of the Day

Elliana: “if you throw up on yourself, just tell mommy and she’ll give you the medicine and a trashcan.” (this was said very seriously to Justus as if teaching him a very important lesson)
Avery: “How deep is your tummy? I think it starts here (pointing to her throat) and goes all the way to your belly b. Which means I need more to eat because my tummy is pretty deep”

Messy Again

This floor had been scrubbed and mopped less than 24 hours earlier…Anyone else out there feel my pain =) I think my kids must have holes in the bottom of their lips!

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I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you
Ezekiel 36:25

Meditating on God’s word is powerful and life changing. This week I spent the week meditating on vs. 25

“from all your idols I will cleanse you.”

Idols. Those things that you worship in addition to or more than God. These words were clearly impressed on my heart, so I knew God was calling me to take time to sit with him so he could reveal some idols I had formed in my heart. I was expecting Him to tell me I had started making my kids or my house or my ministries an idol. I wasn’t expecting Him to tell me this, but plain as day, He said

You are your own idol.

Me? How could I be my own idol? I am sacrificing everything I used to want or desire in order to stay home and raise and disciple my children. I’m giving my life to what God called me to. How can I be an idol?

As the week has progressed, the answer became pretty clear. Why do I get frustrated when nap time isn’t what I want it to be? Because I feel I have the right to some down time during the day. Why do I get angry when fits are thrown or toys aren’t picked up or when sleepless nights begin to become the norm instead of the exception? Because I feel I have the right to expect perfection from others and sleep and alone time for myself.

My dissatisfaction with things comes because I believe deep down in my heart that I have the right to have an easy life full of fulfilling opportunities for myself.

My desires, or what I feel are my rights, have become my idols. They have become the thing I chase after more than I chase after God.

My rights have been submitted to the proper authority and my focus is on chasing after God even in the midst of a life full of dirty diapers, tantrums, messiness, no alone time, little money, an adoring husband, kids who love me, a house with very little things that need fixed, friends who call to check on me, a mom who drops everything to support me, and sisters who bring great joy to my heart every time we talk.

Idols make it really easy to focus on what’s missing in life. God makes it really easy to focus on how much He has blessed my life.

Meditation on God’s word is powerful.

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Joshua 1:8

Goals for this week:

  • Finish Life with God by Richard Foster
  • Continue memorizing and meditating on Ezekiel 36:25-27
  • Focus on daily submitting my rights and chasing after God.

We Finally Made It

I saw this idea on another blog I read a few weeks ago and thought to myself “what a great idea. I should do that with the kids.”

But the thought of making and cutting out leaves was enough to keep pushing the project to the back burner…it became a “maybe tomorrow” type of project.
Until tonight! We finally made our thankfulness tree! I think the motivation was some leftover cutout flowers I had from a breakout session I taught yesterday at church which meant I did not have to trace or cut out leaves with the girls. For some reason, the thought of making leaves exhausted me =)So here’s our tree. So far we just have a few flowers and hearts added with things we’re thankful for. Hopefully we’ll get a little deeper as we continue over the next 2 weeks. Right now we’re still just thankful for balloons and trees =) But even if it never goes any deeper than that, at least they’re learning what it means to be thankful. And hopefully having a bit of fun in the process =)

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I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleannesses, and from all your idols I will cleanse you. And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in my statutes and be careful to obey my rules.

Ezekiel 36:25-27

The past few weeks have been long weeks. The kind that twist and turn your emotions and just wear you out. God has used these long weeks to teach me so much.

The one thing that has been evident in everything that I’ve been learning is the fact the God is living and active and working in me and all around me. Not that I would have ever denied that fact, but God has been opening my eyes and my mind to be constantly aware of God’s hand and the fact that He is working. Its a lot more fun to walk through difficult situations when your eyes are keenly watching for God’s hand among all circumstances. I truly believe that has been God’s gift to me the past few weeks…the ability to constantly be aware of His presence and his purpose in all things so that life does not have the ability to get me down, but rather encourages me and spurs me on.

Why the verse at the top?
The past few weeks, I’ve just been keenly aware of God’s working in my heart. He has been cleansing me and removing some stuff but at the same time satisfying me and speaking to me. The more I am aware of Him on a continual minute by minute basis, the more dependent I become on the Holy Spirit working in my life. This verse speaks to me about how active God is and reminds me to be thankful that we don’t serve a passive God, but an active God who is continually speaking to us and drawing us unto Himself.

Hope the ramblings make sense =) Brent is gone for the week, so this week my goals are a bit smaller. I’m not a good single mom!

Goals from last week:

  • I’m still reading Life With God. Great food for thought!
  • I’m finish with Isaiah and am now reading Ezekiel. What a great book to teach me how all things, even destruction, has a purpose in God’s kingdom.

Goals for this week:

  • Continue reading and meditating on Ezekiel.
  • Memorize Ezekiel 36:25-26
  • Have morning devotions with the kids over breakfast. With Brent not here in the evenings, I know the devotions won’t happen at night unless I start doing them in the morning.

Family Fun Day

Pumpkins, Pumpkins, Pumpkins. Everything today was about pumpkins.

Pumpkin chocolate chip muffinsBaked some pie pumpkins and scraped out the good stuff
Pureed the good stuff and made…the best pumpkin pie in the world =)

And to top it all off, we carved some pumpkins too.I love the fall!

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More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Romans 5:3-5

Last week I wrote about wounds. This week I’m writing about the blessings of the wounds.

See last week I would have told you about certain areas of my life that needed to be refined. Areas that were clearly evident to me as I observed my day. I would have laid out my spiritual journey for you completely differently if the wounds had not occurred.

This week my journey took a completely different turn that what I expected. I have seen completely different areas that need to be refined. Wounds do that. They pull back the scales from your eyes and reveal sin. Not the type of sin that you try to hide from yourself or other people. The type of sin that you don’t even know exists until God chooses to reveal it to you.

Yes, wounds are good. Wounds are refining. Wounds prove that God is alive and active and cares enough about you to keep working on you.Goals from last week:

  • I lost the book Life With God! I’ve started reading Prayer again in preparation for a session I’m teaching over prayer. I know the other book is in the house somewhere! I’ll keep looking this week =)
  • I’ve failed on the TV thing this week too. So You Think You Can Dance is my downfall!
  • Still reading Psalms at night and working on meditating. I have really enjoyed working on the discipline of meditation. I’m not good at it yet, but its a fun journey!

Goals for this week:

  • No TV except for So You Think You Can Dance. For the kids of course. The girls look forward to watching it during our Girls’ Night =)
  • Find and continue reading Life With God.
  • Review Meditation
  • Start memorizing scripture again.

Happy Birthday!!

My Spiritual Journey


This past week I’ve been dealing with some disappointing situations.

Over the weekend,
the disappointments
turned
to wounds.

Deep wounds.

Wounds that penetrate the very depth of your soul.

Wounds that bring tears to the eyes with a mere thought.

Wounds that won’t heal overnight.

But the fight begins.

I refuse to allow these wounds to stay open and fresh.

No they will not fester bitterness.

Through God’s grace, the wounds will heal. They may leave a permanent scar, but they will heal. It may just take time.

God never promises we won’t get hurt in life. He only promises He’ll never leave us.

For he wounds, but he binds up;
he shatters, but his hands heal. Job 5:18

Behold, this we have searched out; it is true.
Hear, and know it for your good.” Job 5: 27

Goals from Last Week:

  • Reading Psalms before bed has been great. I haven’t succeeded every night, but working in that direction. Meditating on TRUTH from scripture has been life giving this week.

Goals for this Week:

  • Keep reading Psalms before bed.
  • Keep meditating on the truth of scripture throughout the day
  • Continue reading Mastery and Life With God
  • No TV this week

Happy Fall

I think pumpkin pie is the next thing we’ll make…yummmmm. I love fall =)

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