Sitting in traffic, attempting to meet friends to see an IMAX movie, and hearing my sister saying my dad was on his way to the hospital is an image that will never be erased from my mind. I thought I would be calm, or super, over the top, organized/planner when I got a call about one of my parents. Instead I was just a mess. I pulled into the IMAX movie and my middle daughter said, “hey mom, do you think you could stop doing that once we get inside?” I asked her what I needed to stop doing and she replied, “crying. Please don’t do that when we go inside.” Yes, mercy and compassion seem to be on the bottom of her giftings at this stage of the game.
By the time I made it home that night to fall into my husbands arms, my dad was awake, but couldn’t remember anything. And not just couldn’t remember what happened to him, he couldn’t remember ANYTHING. I had prayed the whole way home that the Lord would make it possible for me to get to Chicago by the next day. I later learned friends had given us some airline miles so I could get a ticket up to Chicago the next morning. The Lord always provides.
The next 48 hours were a mixture of relief, confusion, tension, love, and gratefulness. I was surrounded by my sisters, my mom, my nephews,and my brother-in-law and together we all walked through this frightful scenario together. As each test can back clean, I could feel the tension among us decrease bit by bit. As each doctor answered more and more questions, I could feel me begin to relax more and more.
On the plane on the way home, I began to recount all the blessings of the trip. Everything from plane tickets, to the neurologist, to my sister’s willingness to get all of us where we needed to go, to being able to switch plane tickets with no cost, to time with my nephews, to conversations with my sisters, to good cardiologists, to thorough doctors, to private hospital rooms, and the list could go on and on. In fact, the list of things I was thankful for grew so long that I could no longer be scared for my dad.
Its amazing how fear seems to dissipate when your eyes are on the Lord.
for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7
(sorry about the poor quality of photos but very thankful to have a phone with a photo option on it!)